i'm in one of those moods where i suddenly feel like taking down this blog, scream my lungs out, and then go take a bath. cos i haven't. oops, shouldn't have told you that.

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sometimes, you wake up, and you wonder what the hell you are doing here. sometimes you question yourself whether all your life is worth living for. sometimes, you can't help but look at people and wonder if they are indeed happy with their lives or are they just pretending to have fun - like we all do sometimes. sometimes you wonder if it's any better trying to be happy when you're just fine being miserable. sometimes you feel like crying for no reason but you cannot do so because people might think you're a nutcase. sometimes you feel like going quiet but then everyone would start asking what's wrong with you.

we are all prisoners of ourselves in a free world.

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the fuchun girls came over to my house for hari raya on thursday. dhaniah, ezila, aisyah, puteri, liyana j, and hairin - the real jambu squad. didn't join them because a) i was tired, having just got home from kampong, and b) i still had that freaking bug. had such a fun time laughing and reminiscing those good ol' days when aisyah had a major crush on aaron carter [yucks!], and liyana j. was grouchy and grumpy [apparently she still is according to aisy. ahhaha.]. then we had fun making fun of all the others who weren't there.

nice memories.

then kat came over on friday and darling nas called, so we had a conference on the phone. haha. couldn't hear half of what she daid though, cos the line was so faint. [alright alright, i'm a bit deaf la] but it was still fun.

i really have to bathe before guests come a-knock-knock-knocking on my door!